Hurting
Freestyle rhyme on longing for God’s peace
I’m hurting but yearning
For you to take control
So much in my hands
I don’t wanna let go
And you say that you love me
And wanna be near me
But God my soul is so drained
And my mind so weary
Why can’t I write
Why can’t I be wanted?
Why are my lifelong dreams
Always haunted?
What do you want that
I haven’t already given?
Is this lackluster life
What you want me to be livin’?
Do you only give dreams
To take them away?
Open up doors just
To slam in my face?
But I’m okay, I’m surviving
I’m getting along
I’ll smile all the while
My mind sings a sad song
And my pen writes the lyrics
Though I know you can’t hear it
But you can see through
my restless spirit
I just need you to calm me
come reassure me
Cut through the silence
let me know that you heard me
Because if Hezekiah can pray
and get fifteen more years
Maybe you’ll be able
to dry up these tears
though I haven’t really cried them
Try to be a tough man
and just hide inside them
but when I’m alone
I just want to put down my phone
close my eyes
scream out with groans
I can’t even understand
I don’t know what to pray for
Don’t have the keys
for all these locked doors
Fighting temptations
to settle old scores
But you say to let it go
These dreams are all yours
So I put on Steven Curtis
and hear him sing I’M FREE
Please keep me from drowning
in fear and insecurity
I’m broken and hurting
and I need your peace
So I’m giving you control
I’m letting go
forget other’s affirmation
God, you’re my only hope
